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By Marques Ruiz

Blindly staring at the dust swimming carelessly in the afternoon sunlight peeking through my window, I glumly wonder

Were we really worth it, why’d we ever birth this, was this all a blunder

Time spent out of my wallet out of life being diced with a knife, given all to you, I’m struggling to pay

No hard feelings, I thought we had the real thing, I never imagined you leaving… anyways… I gave you 331 days

47 weeks and some change, I thought our dedication had range, I guess

Now I feel like I’m less, we had love and for what, I was giving my life to invest

I’m free up until that’ll change, my life is rearranged, my side now vacant without you, it all feels strange

I’ve stayed in my lane, I have never played games, and through my entire struggle with or without you, I had never complained

I reminisce, we had a once upon a time walking across a fine line, and you were all mine… before all of this

My hand intertwined with yours, I had opened all the doors, I would always wipe your eyes when they would poor

You were a piece of life I adored, I’d always want more, dreamy like above yet pretty like a dove, I guess you could say I was truly in love

I’ve had the luxury of walking across the stable bridge of love; trust, care, and lust, all lived thoroughly

All lovely things end, but who knew it’d be you and me

Although you left me for the confusion, often viewed now as an optical allusion, my heart is battered with contusions

I’m sitting here thinking you could still be with me, but I’m honestly sick of living in this memory

I guess it’s true when they say time pays, but I’m now a poor man with nothing left today and now I’m a stray, who had went from riches to rags to give you all 331 days

By Marques Ruiz

My worn soles have pounded this pavement just about a thousand times looking for you, you know?

I’d do just about anything for you, and I have a feeling you understand our complex love for one another

The things I see and the demons who visit me just for a while ask about you, calling you Coke and Blow

I hope you and I will be together forever, like old times when it used to be me and you and my brother

The best is when it’s dark and brisk among this concrete jungle, meeting others like me

These others don’t treat you like I do, and I always know where to pick you up when the lights get low

I can’t feel my face and this world and I both know it’s not because the numbing cold in this city

It’s safe to say God has forgotten about me, but the way I’m feeling I know you’ll take me to a Heaven he doesn’t know

In between black seas with awful depressions and paranoia, I should fear nothing knowing you’re the white rock floating me to shore

Landing back on Earth to a violent rumble of the subway with these dull yellow lights blinding me

I want you to take me back, take me higher, and take me some place we’ve never been before

Crawl into the comfortable clear seat of my pipe, and with that we can begin our next journey

The story has not changed, but now my need for you is crucial

I’ve far too gone and too deep in this lonely void, along with the overdue tears in my eyes with my eyes full

These joyous spirits I once got are wearing off, and the black in my lungs continue to show up too

In the mangled thoughts of these dangerous brick corners, I haven’t failed to believe that the God that once loved me gave up on me

But whoever makes the grim challenge to help me, for the love of God please tell me what to do?

By Marques Ruiz.

You possess the highest rank of my heavily dented heart, plagued with broken promises and iced lies

Although it is not your fault, the love I have gathered for you has gone beyond our concentrated eyes

I never imagined then lived something so perfect, yet it occurred between individuals such as me and you

It’s overwhelming to know it’s only the lowest point, but we have a while to figure out what to us is new

You’re truthfully an extraordinary part of life, and yet such a beautiful girl you’ve come to be

The blemishes of life has become a difficulty for you and I know it can be resolved with trust in me

In the nature of fuckery and mishap, I have yet to show you how beautiful things will appear 

I have had the luxury of walking across the stable bridge of love; trust, care, and lust, all lived thoroughly

The man I claim to be me, is far from the figure of man I’d like to be, and in fact you need more of me

I have no plan on changing the progress that’s been fought for by the both of us, and it shouldn’t be adjusted

I’ve made a promise forever, physically and emotionally locked in indefinitely which I have no problem with

Through our clustered frustration and continuous vast area of disappointment, we won’t be corrupted

I truthfully love you, I truthfully adore you, and I truthfully believe your overall presence in my life, is an eternal gift

By Marques Ruiz.

Various colors and imaginations that couldn’t be clearer

The image is radiant, the climax is nearer

Far from being stressed nor troubled, in fact a tranquil state

There is no time to be awaken for how deep I’ve fallen, it’s far too late

For it all, it’s going to fade to grey soon

My eyelids are flickering in the dust swimming in the afternoon

Nothing makes sense, and that’s completely fine with me

If this is such a high, then a great high it’ll be

I rather be in here than face the demons of out there

Because in my valley of happiness and care, I can always talk to the man upstairs

I don’t mind all the people I hate and enemies I’ve made

Because in here, anything is capable and I don’t allow sorrow for who is not saved

I regret none of my pleasure, matter of fact nothing at all

The limits here are endless, and the list of euphoric luxuries are quite tall

It seems like I’ll never wake up, and I’m far from worried when I will

I’m way beyond satisfied that this experience was instilled

By Marques Ruiz.

I can see right through you, and I’m brilliant

The way you exist, I cannot stand it

For the way I see right through you, you’re very transparent

Although everything you are, I have yet to understand it

I’ve studied every bit of you, and you’re horridly hideous

Yet the way I see you, I wish you could see all of this

You’ve ruined yourself and it’s astonishingly obvious

I don’t wish you death, even though you’d be hardly missed

I’ve come to a conclusion that I don’t like you very much

I’ve noticed that you’re weaker than most, I wish you luck

You will not make it, along with your other goals and such

Failure is what I call you

Yet, I’ve mastered on how to avoid you too

By Marques Ruiz.

From now to then, too many memories

I think about us, remember us all?

But then, a group we thought we’d always be

I am not sure, it had seemed to all fall

You’ve found a new group, of course I wish well

Some have faded, or have found each other

Or maybe altogether, you’ve all fell

We’ve lost touch, far from sister or brother

It is not our fault, nor not an issue

People change, for good or for the better

Now you don’t know me, don’t say, “I miss you”.

I said people change, nothing’s forever.

Yeah right; no hard feelings, I understand

Don’t expect anything, out of these hands.

By Marques Ruiz.

I can live life through a picture

I can explain my life through a picture

I have a lot of time on my hands, and it’s blatantly obvious

Yet I laugh about not having a life, I don’t have a problem with this

The colors, the texture, the grain

Maybe a shot directly up into the rain

Maybe a close up, expressing pain

I adore the amount of life my camera contains

For so many things I know how to do

Yet I honestly rather sit back, and watch the blur sink through

I sound alone calling a camera my friend

But if I had nobody else, the camera would be there with me to the end

I could care less about anything else, or better yet

Anything ever again